Contradictions . . .

So being a stay at home mom I described as 'idle', I sure have contradicted myself! I have had one thing or another for the last solid week every day! Right now i'm honestly wishing it was next Tuesday so I could have a day at home to do nothing! I wonder if this is a little joke from God? The honest scary truth, is that I feel that God wants me to stay home at the moment. I don't believe that a womans only place is in the home, however I don't believe it isn't either. I do believe God made each of us wonderfully unique! I believe that everyone needs to seek God for their purpose and calling and not rely on 'laws' made by different religions. So whether God calls a person to be an astronaut, a missionary, a drive thru attendant at McDonalds, or a stay at home parent I believe it is completely between the individual and God. Not the individual, God, and Pastor, Spouse, Parent, Mentor, etc. However, I do admit I find it hard to ignore others opinions, beliefs, and pessimism. So while I don't understand why God wants me to stay home, I suppose it's what I will do! I do feel however that this is temporary! I have a long prayer list (don't we all) And I just feel like God is telling me to be patient, He has something wonderful around the corner for us!  Psalm 48:14 says "For this is God, Our God forever and ever; He will be our guide Even to death" So who am I to doubt? God has more than proved himself in my life, I know however that I have to allow him to work! I can't hold on to everything and expect him to be able to work in my life! Another example of, "Letting Go and Letting God" I have to Let Go and Let God be my guide in all things! (Easier said than done!) So if you have a major decision in your life and feel confused, I hope it gives you comfort to know that you are not alone in that boat! The hard part is letting God steer!